Monthly Archive for April, 2008
So many things go through my head, so much is changing. It’s like a merry-go-round that keeps speeding up and I’m trying to hold on to. So many different aspects are affected:
- job
- transportation
- love
- family
- housing
- friends
- band
- future
Some things were mentioned to me yesterday, that made me think. One of these was, how important my current home location might actually be to me. I never really considered this a likable city, nor do I particularly like living here. If anything I see myself in bigger cities or somewhere completely else altogether. Furthermore I never really thought of myself much as of a nature-person. The older I get, the more I suppose I have to rethink this paradigm as well. It’s rather odd; I feel like I am peeling out of a shell right now; the problem being, I always thought I was happy in the first place and never wanted to leave my cocoon. It’s sort of like deconstructing myself. A year ago, everything seemed so laid out and pretty much perfect. Now, everything is de- and reassembled.
Apart from that, today has been a little annoying: There was a lot of discussion about the new work contract I *almost* have what I want now. But just almost. Then the workers around the house locked me out of the garage; so I am stuck here without transportation at the moment. I am supposed to run errands and that blows. Plus I didn’t get to bike. And nobody knows whether there will be a key before dad comes back from recreation.
I talked to a few people I haven’t talked to in a while recently. Today I talked to Johanna F. for the first time. Last I have seen her was over 8 years ago… sometime in late 99 if I remember correctly. Then I got a call about playing band stuff a couple of days ago. That was surprising and I hope that this will really work out. Getting a bit of drumming out of my system might just be what I need apart from my bikes.
Speaking of which: I need to do something about the transportation situation as well. Car: overproportionally expensive. Moped: too slow. Compromise: Small motorbike or scooter. Still need to get the license though… yet another 300 will go out for that.