My own private Emocide

@079
i used to be in this scene… i was a kid and had a dream. i dreamt of changing the world through unity. it was this unity that gave me the feeling of security. we were one crew - a big family. but what happened then? i refused to go on drinkin - and so you refused ME!
i often thought about the lack of political consciousness in the hardcorescene and remembered those great summerdays years ago. asked myself if it´d´ve been better and more honest to stay in the punk-scene - but finally i wasn´t even given a choice.
for me punk used to be: honesty - unity - critisicm - TOLERANCE
what was shown to me today… what is punk these days…? is it pogodancing including kicking lil girls? is it beating someone up “just for fun”? is it keeping others away from helping the victim coz “noone likes the other guy anyway” and ” well… that´s no use… that´s him…”? is it to still be an intolerant asshole and not accepting my lifestyle? is it to shout “oi” as often as possible to show that you ARE in the scene and know the “secret codes”? is it being too drunk to be able to even sit?
…what really remained of this scene: your honesty is alcohol n shit - your unity is intoxication - your scene is a big lie. this time i refuse YOU! there´s no tolerance left - and your political consciousness consists of being pissed and not changing your clothes for weeks, colored hair and maybe - but just sometimes - wearing a “nazipunx fuck off”- shirt.
my dream burst like a bubble…
i wonder if you ever were friends… this night i realized… even if there IS really few politixxx in hc - it´s still 1000 times more and more honest than in THIS punk scene.
and hey - “ovilaba root boys”: if tim armstrong saw you shouting his songs (resch: how can cou still play drums just soooo badly after more than 4 years?!?) and behaving like this? - fOI!ck you!
i hope that it´s just here that those punks are so poor figures - but i fear it´s different…
choose to think instead of just being confident with your own narrow-minded world!
i did so and got banned - what remained?

this evening was sad & shocking…