My own private Emocide

a big grrrrrrrr ro my timing. how often i missed gan just for a few minutes is incredible.
it´s kinda like our hearts were connected by an invisible bond and the longer we don´t meet and the farer we´re away the more it´s stretched and hurts.
was at the morning again show yesterday. cameran played too - a bih fuck you ro aaron “ex-racial-abuse superstar” tauss. i can´t stand him - and the others are such idiots too… at least the singer. and this band is always compared to refused. that´s as if one would compare a subaru to a ferrari. and they represent austrian hardcore… sad, sad, sad… morning again rocked - but they didn´t let play a third band on their equipment which was really unfair from them i think. superstars - ha?
anyway - today i can lick my wounds like after every show… every bone in my body hurts.
met a lotta nice peops again i haven´t seen for ages. especially stevo from windmill recs. vienna and clemens from tele novela in graz. also got a demo from “true to illusion”… was quite funny… suddenly a hand tapped on my shoulder and a voice asked: “are you s*d?” i agreed… then a guy gave this demo to me and said i should think of him the next time i´m making something again. this homepage seems to show effects! maybe we´re gonna do a show with german nyari / jane next year. but i don´t think that ´ still´ll be here then which is really sad coz these bands rock like hell.
after the show when we went back home the 200 miles again i fell asleep in the car. we listened to joe´s nightradio which is a famous radio-talkshow on austrias biggest and most popular radiostation. when i still was fuckin sleepy the others had the great idea to call there - and so they gave the receiver to me - i mean - i was really sleepy - and i didn´t really realize. so i had to stay on the line then for over an hour until they took me on air. the problem was, that i was wide awake then again - and i had to be so concentrated to not laugh my ass off. man - this guy is too stupid… - and i told him so much crap. that was the third radiostation i was on air in 1999 - hehehe. well - i was at home at 3 then - and my parents came home even after me… tststs… slept at 3:30… called gan @ 5:30 - was nearly too tired to keep sitting in front of mr. karl with open eyes… couldn´t reach her… told her i´d be there @ 8 again… went online at 8:20… she already had left… and i still miss her like fuckin crazy. need to get some more sleep now.