My own private Emocide

5:55am… the 3rd day without gan… it´s becoming more than hard. doesn´t she see how much i miss her? i wouldn´t ever hurt her again. strange mail. fuck you past! fuck you s*d! love and trust - once you have it keep it warm and save - it´s gonna be so hard to get it back again. i hope not TOO hard… my batterys are lacking energy. i fixed my flight yesterday. damn… where is she? it makes me mad. i really start to worry… and i don´t deserve it any better.